Mr. J

End of daylight saving today.. The first thing I did when I got up at 12pm was to call Mandy! Forgot that I was supposed to meet her up. Luckily she went out.. Haha.. I went to Safeway again to replenish my empty fridge. I've waited for almost half an hour in the queue! holly crap!

Let's turn the clock back for a while. I wasn't feeling very happy today after the lunch in King's. Wanted to catch a movie at Hoyts and why let me bumped into Mr.J outside the cinema? I was pretty sure it was him and the funniest thing was he saw me and pretended that he doesn't know me. I even saw Ms.C is waiting for him ahead. Over the years in Melbourne, I had never bumped into him before. Until recently I bumped into his friends and I walked away after saying hi to his friends eventhough I know he was there. Maybe that was the reason he did that.

I wonder why do I feel unhappy and disturbed? Why I'm still trying to avoid not seeing him after so long? Just before I stepped out of the house, I had a strong feeling I'll see him. I wanted him to see me with someone else, happily. I want him to know he made a wrong decision. I know I shouldn't be feeling that way but I don't know.. That justify why I was born a Scorpion. This chapter of my life has ended for sure ages ago but now, I had to learn to forgive, I can't forget because memories are part of me.

Didn't tell Dan about this as I didn't want him to get jealous. I know he will. And I don't see any point of telling things about my past. I'm very happy with everything now. I'm not stupid enough to ruin it this way. Anyway, let's hope we will be nice enough to say hi and have the guts to face each other the next time we meet. We're still friends!

Quote of the day: I love my past, I love my present. I'm not ashamed of what I've had and I'm not sad because I have it no longer...