I am extreme

24 hours ago, my mind wasn't in a stable condition. Not any psycho activities of course but just some thoughts. I was considering to quit my studies. God knows what the hell went wrong with my brain cells. I never quit, ever. And after I started blasting it all out, I realised that the problem lies in me.

Here's the situation. I'm turning 24 soon. I graduated 2 years ago with an IT degree and now I'm doing sound engineering.. A total different profession. I know its only 4 more months for me to complete the course but somehow or rather I felt that I'm always stuck in the middle of nowhere. When I was studying IT, I really don't quite enjoy it. I don't know much but at the same time I know alot too. See..

Same thing happening now. I wonder why the rest of my classmates know so much. Because they read? Because they knew all these before they were here? I don't know. Maybe I was holding grudge. It was about Terina. She's my classmate, well the one I "buddy" with in class. We don't go out or chat outside class. Solely CLASSMATE. I wasn't happy about her completing the assignment. I didn't mean anything bad. All the weeks I've been spending in the studio, trying to find out how the console work, research etc etc. All she did was asked me to teach her and she completed in 10 minutes. I understand that "Sharing is caring" but why am I feeling that she's stealing? I hope I'm not being selfish here..

Alright, back to the story. I said I was extreme. YES I AM! I woke up this morning feeling so much better and grudge-less though her msgSS woke me up by asking me how to do this and that. No worries mate! I continued on my assignments then. I love music but when it comes to composing.. geez.. I can't! I need to compose 2 songs, each for 2 minutes. He helped me. Hehe.. luckily he can play piano and luckily he owns a electric piano. He carried it all the way upstairs for me because there isn't enough notes to play on my mini keyboard. =)

Thanks!