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I was reading my 2004, 2005 posts yesterday night and I realised there are so much difference between my life then and now. I'm sure everyone has gone through that stage but somehow i felt how nice if some things are better left unchanged.

I used to be so happy and naive. Knowing that financially I don't have to worry cos I was still a student back then. Staying in nice place, never really consider twice about the rent, eating nice food, enjoying life, buying stuff that I want unnecessarily etc etc. Now everything is so different. I have to earn it myself, budgeting what can be bought this month, how to limit myself from overspending all this shit.

It's part life I know, but why do we all have more problems as we grow older? More responsibility, more white hairs and we tend to frown more than we laugh. It make us become stronger and tougher when shit happens?

Sometimes I wonder I keep complaining this and that, I'm actually damn lucky compared to many others. Life is really a rugged jungle out there and yet I'm always living in my own wonderland.

Weekend Blues

Thought you would like my new hair but didn't know you don't. I'm not trying to talk you to like it but the reaction you gave was just.. a bit disappointing. Never mind, not like I'm gonna see you in the next 5 months.

Dad was asking when you are coming over today or when I'm going over to see you. I told him December and he's kinda shock. What I can do is to make up more reasons explaining why you couldn't come and see me. I'm not gonna bring up this topic to you again, solely to prevent arguments. I was thinking over and over again, was it that difficult? That means my family is not gonna see you and you too never have the intention of seeing them this whole year..

Maybe I was being sensitive but at the end of it, I'm the one going to marry to HK all the way, knowing no one, start my new life there and what so hard to just let my family to have confident, to be sure in the man I chose? Nobody will understand how I feel..

孤独

我做什么都是错的。。
可能注定我是孤独的啦。。
没有人会明白我。。
我越来越觉得，我们开始有距离。。
就算我有什么错。。最近的冷淡对待已经够了。。
为什么不能像以前一样？
可能我对身边每个人要求太高，太多了。。
很辛苦。。

しばらくですね！

Finally the internet is back, woohoooooo!! I got so much to say, wish I have an output on my head straight to the computer in and some translator plug-in will upload itself to blogger.com! The beauty of technology is we have to keep thinking, there are people out there who'll keep trying and one day it'll become reality.

Every time when I'm alone, the thing I enjoy most is to sing like nobody can hear me, which is what I'm doing right now. Haha.. I love it.. It's half past 12 already, I'm still wide awake, wishing I didn't agree to work tomorrow morning. Or maybe it was the tea I had during dinner kicking in. Damn.. I hate caffeine.

JJ told me to check out Manhand's new MV the other day but I can't seem to able to load it completely but with my new 1Mbps line I just did it! I like 慢行.

慢行 MV
准时收听 MV

I'm writing in different para because that's how my brain work now. Just now in the mood to write so many things but SUDDENLY i forgot. The caffeine is going away.

Now listening: Jason Mraz - The Remedy