Visitors

I didn't sleep well yesterday. I have visitors. Some people might think I'm crazy but I swear I saw things I've never seen before.

As usual, after I hung up the phone after a long chat with the bf. The next thing happened was there were many many many "objects" talking to me. I prefer to call them aliens, or maybe there is a better word to describe, at least not that I know of. Obviously when this happens, a normal human reaction would be - scared. I know I was half conscious that time, but I don't know what were they talking about, it sounds gibberish to me and I have no clue at all and not intending to find out. So I pray that they'll go away. They did after a while.

I stared at my glass door. Shit how am I supposed to describe how they left?? Imagine photocopy machine.. That kinda light. It was middle of the night and I saw it twice next to my door. It freaks me out. This is like what I've always seen in the movie, when the others goes back to the UFOs.. the light will bring them up or suck them up or something. The next part was even exciting. I know the possibility of UFO in my room sounds very stupid but the next thing I saw was lights with many many colors spinning in a very fast speed, roughly the size of football on top of my ceiling. It moved around and spin even faster and it disappeared when I blink my eyes. It was that fast. It might not be UFO because of its size but then what was that?

I still don't get it.

Since young, I know I'm more prone to all these negative energy which means they allow me to see them once in a while. There were a period of time where I can smell them. Every time during the presence of "the others", I smell fishy smell, as fishy as blood.

The only logic explanation to all these encounters of i-dunno-how-many-times, is that I was tired and tiredness makes me hallucinate. Good night.

Anger

I was so angry today. My hotmail account was hacked for the third time this year. I wonder wtf is the problem. Could it be just a random script who hid inside both my pc and mac and hack it whenever they like or was it a real human who's so free and kept doing it every now and then to me? Whoever and whatever you are, fuck you x infinity x loop it for as long as the earth spin.

The departure of Jim Clancy in ghost whisperer makes me even sadder. Why why why? Eventhough he's such a redundant role in the show but he's such a sweet and supportive husband.. I almost burst into tears during the shot where Melinda saw his ghost. Damn it!

Am now listening to Chipmunks Christmas songs.. makes me feel so much better after all these anger the whole day!

Emo

The moody Tracy is here, pms-ing. I guess its this few days.

Moody leads to emo. While I was emo-ing, I miss Buddy. And missing Buddy makes me cry. Its been 2 months, I can't believe he left just like that. Time heals but it can never make me forget how painful it was. If I can exchange something to touch you one last time now. I would.

稻香之旅

I spent my few days in Alor Star. At first it was mum's idea to go visit her hometown then I was inspired by Jay's song - 稻香 (Dao Xiang) and thought maybe its good to give myself a short break and head north to smell the paddy!

People in small town tend to be so much nicer and warmer. Most important, they are themselves. They are real. At least I don't feel that they have barrier and that so-called defense wall like us.

Here I don't have to worry about how shitty I look when I go out, I walked straight out to the market with my pyjamas without combing my hair, brushing my teeth and washing my face. It feels soooo damn good.

I asked mum how old is this tree. Its as old as long as she can remember..

Grandfather's clock

I grew up in the city, so I'll never know and never understand how people live in small town feels like. Visiting to these places makes me appreciate where I am now. I remembered the trip back to China, dad's hometown was great. It was 5 years ago. I got to see the aunty I met for the second time in my life and cousins that I never knew existed. Sometimes I wonder what would I be if my grandfather didn't bring my dad to Malaysia? Will I be like the rest of the cousins?

I'm blessed that I know how both my parents grow up and maybe why I'm me and nothing really matters as long as you're happy no matter where you are!

Aussie Aussie Aussie

The recording yesterday ended at 230am. I was super tired. First, I'm aging, so I can't stay up late like I used to as those days. Second, the levels of the whole recording is making my ears and brain very drained. Thanks to this super deaf musician. It's reaching the level where my ear actually hurts a lil and he still said louder.. Niama.. but the whole night I didn't give a shit on anything else besides wishing the clock could tick faster.

I slept at almost 330am and got up at 8am! I'm supposed to start work at 1pm since I worked late but I went to work at 10am. What an workaholic. I couldn't sleep. My body has its own clock and automatically woke up. No matter how I try to make myself to fall asleep again, it didn't work and the next thing I know is I'm on the way to work.

I'm gonna stay past 12am today. Air Asia is giving free tickets to Perth, Gold Coast and Melbourne. I missed it the time before and I'm not gonna miss it this time!! I'll get ready my credit card and flying date and click buy when I found the "0" fare option!

Australia, here I come again! Told ya I'll be back!

Late night

Sunday supposed to be relaxed and chilled.. BUT.. Somehow some assholes will screw up your weekend once in a while. The whole day of doing nothing and the thought of I have to work at this miserable hour of 11pm makes me wanna puke. 11pm is the time I'm getting ready to sleep. I don't mind if it has to be a weekend job, but not like this. Fuck whoever celebrity you are. And so happened all the males in the company are out station. Such a coincidence.

After all the cursing and swearing since Friday (the day I know I have to do this recording), the curse actually worked a little bit. It wasn't 11pm but 9pm. One vocalist coming at 9 and the other one coming at 11. Still...... I was cursing it to cancel or postponed till weekday!

The cursing and swearing wasn't that effective. It took me the whole Friday night to convince myself to accept it. It's raining outside and how wish I can sleep till next morning. The moral of the story is..

If you can't beat it, join it!