Buddy is Home

Yea and I'm really glad but he'll be gone in 2 weeks time according to the doctor. He's suffering from kidney failure. The normal level of a kidney test is between the range of 2 to 9. When he was admitted, it was 300. By going on drip, normally it will go down but instead it increased to 400. That means the kidney is not working anymore. He couldn't eat and drink anymore. He vomited twice yesterday. It looks like some mucus stuff and yellowish..

He's no longer active. All he can do now is lie there and wait. Waiting for the light..

I cried and cried and I don't know what else I could do to ease his pain. We can't just put him to sleep because that is not fair. His life is not up to us to decide. And I know he didn't want to leave as well. I can tell from the way he look at us. I kept telling him if he sees the light, just go there.. It's a better place for him and don't worry that we'll forget you, you'll always be remembered.

The doctor came this morning to inject some sodium in his body because he hasn't been eating and drinking for days. That's just to prevent him from dehydration and wouldn't cure him..

I wish I have more time with him but I also wish this could end soon. It's hard to see him like this when I cannot do anything. The doctor also said miracles can happened in 1 out of 10 dogs. I wish he'll be the one.

Buddy I miss you

Dogs are man's best friend. No matter how you scold them, they won't remember it. Even you hit them, they have the memory of a gold fish and forget about it minutes later.

Buddy just turned 13 last Sunday and I wish for more. Though we all know that dog's lifespan is not as long as human, that's why we are always prepare that one day they will leave us. When the moment is getting nearer, it felt like you've never been prepared for that day.

He's weak. He's suffering from rheumatism, anemia and bad kidney. He's always the happy one, I hate to see him there and moody, not jumping around. When I'm in bad mood, I ignore him but he never fail to cheer me up every time. I kept telling myself not to cry but I really can't help it when I'm thinking of him suffering.

I miss how he'll greet me whenever I came back from work. I miss how the I shouted Buddy whenever I'm near the door because he's always there. I miss how he wanted to eat the food I bought from outside and started scratching my pants. I miss how he ran around the garden chasing for squirrels and birds. I just miss him now..

I hope he stays strong and come home soon.

It hurts

I walk like my soul is left behind..
I drive like I can be dead anytime..
I barely feel alive..
I know for sure you're ignoring my calls..
I thought something happened but I know you're fine..
I bring my phone everywhere wishing you would call back..
I pretend to laugh and smile when I'm not alone..
Hope you happy with what you're doing..

Happy Anniversary..

When the going gets tough

The tough gets going. When things are not right, we blame. I feel so neglected now.

I always thought trust is the most important thing in a long distance relationship but I was wrong. It's freedom. Maybe I'm being very pushy but what else I can do except knowing what you're doing. I also thought I'm the luckiest long distance girlfriend one can be because my boyfriend calls me everyday but I was wrong. Talking everyday when we're running out of topic is definitely not good. I thought calling you all the time is a good way to maintain and I expect that too. I was wrong again. Everything I thought went wrong.

Maybe I expect too much and maybe you're better off without me.. No one will ever bug you to call and blame you for not calling anymore..

Sunday

Weekend is always good to sleep, eat and rot. Haha.. Years gone by and this motto of mine still holding strong. Some people might think it's a waste of time or I'm being lazy but I don't care. It's my life, I do what I like as long I don't interfere with anyone's life.

My plan was to eat slightly more healthy today, trying to detox but instead I felt so sinful after lunch. Pasta zanmai was really irresistible. Nice place, fusion food, Japanese style. Imagine eating pasta in a bowl with chopstick. Sounds weird but I kinda like it. Next time I'm gonna try their pasta with unagi or other funny combinations such as sashimi pizza though I don't take raw stuff. Besides, the dessert was fantastic. Everything just melt in your mouth. Till this very minute I still don't feel hungry. The cream sauce pasta I had have completely filled up every inch of my stomach.

Disney High School Musical Ice Tour

I'm going I'm going this Friday! Free tickets from my clients! Don't know why I'm so excited.. Maybe because its free.. haha.. Partly because I've been doing this job's TV promo since April, the client's client which is the agency people maximum gave me hard time during the recording. But I'm so glad its all over and she actually turned out to be so nice and gave us tickets.

All the late nights because of this recording has come to an end because I finally won't have to do the promo anymore. I don't mind doing it but maybe less fussy client will be better. In fact, it turned out quite good on tv, maybe what she insisted was right. Don't know don't care now. I just wanna go watch this show. The last on ice show I watched was beauty and the beast which dad brought me there when I was still a kid.


I had durian just now. My fingers still smell like durian.. I wonder will I still smell it when I dig my nose in the night.. =)

SHUTUP

WHY EVERYONE HAS TO SHOUT AT EACH OTHER, DON'T LIKE EACH OTHER, COMPLAIN ABOUT EACH OTHER AND FIGHT??????????????????

CAN WE MAKE PEACE??? HOME IS NOT A PLACE TO FIGHT!!!!!!! FUCK THE WHOLE DAMN WORLD!

The Tales of Beedle the Bard

I can't believe I just bought this through Amazon. Credit cards are way too convenient. But its definitely worth it because its from JK Rowling! Being a super duper huge fan of hers and Harry Potter series, this book is a must to have! In the seventh book of Harry Potter the deathly hallows, this book was mentioned so many times as it is the fairytale book of all magical kids. It would be great to know what they read when they were a kid just like how we read the snow white, gingerbread man and Cinderella etc etc. This book will only released on the 4th of December 2008.. I shall wait..

China rocks!

I feel like blogging as soon as I got up. I was super exhausted yesterday.
Thought of having an entry on 080808 but was too tired to even turn on the computer.

15 minutes before the Olympic opening, I was stuck in the traffic jam. Massive jam! Everyone wants to get home in time for the historic moment of China. I didn't know it went on and on and on for 4 freaking hours. My butt was hurting after sitting on the floor for such long hours.

I couldn't express how proud I am if I was there though I'm not from China but still, I'm damn fucking proud to be a Chinese! Anyway, I was really amazed by what they've done. How can they thought of this? Where does all these ideas come from? It's superb!

Buddy

The dog has gone mad. Few months ago I caught him eating dead rat corps, that was the smelliest thing I've ever smell.. Few days ago, my bro caught him eating snail alive and my bro has to dig the snail out from his mouth. Yesterday I caught him eating bird.

I was sweeping the floor and found out there were blood stain here and there. Curiously I wanna know what died there or who gets hurt whatsoever. This stupid dog was biting a bloody creature and taking his own sweet time to his usual spot. I mean really bloody. I can smell the blood from far. I almost puke. The last time I have to take out the rat skin from his mouth with newspaper. This time I use some cloth. I can feel the warmness and the bone of that poor bird. I guess it must have hurt itself and landed in our house, thought this could be a shelter. Who knows it became its graveyard. I threw it outside the drain. I'm sorry, birdie. There's no way I'm letting my dog eat you.

He used to be a vegetarian, now he's a carnivore. Not even people changed, dog changed too!!!

TGIF

I never know how it feels like and how good it feels like on Friday before I started working. Today I have the TGIF feel cos I've been working non stop. At the end of the day, this is what's in my mind: Why do I work so hard, its Friday! Give me a break! I just feel like leaving and anywhere else would be good except staying in the office. So we stick to our plan and went to TGIF after work.

My plan was to have the chicken wings but ended up I had the whole Jack Daniel's Chicken meal. I felt like I ate the whole chicken, plus the chicken wings, it felt like 2 chickens. I'm so happy and so bloated yet contented with the food and treating myself such a nice and expensive meal. Never mind, we must pamper ourselves once in a while. Praising myself for being such a good girl for working so hard this week.

I don't understand why some clients are so stupid. I wonder why these people has to piss me off big time. Yes I understand your daughter needs to record her part because she's going to the states to study, but is that my fucking problem? I also don't understand why the talent acting like an asshole as if I owe him money. Is that my fucking problem too? The company owe you money, not me.

Though tomorrow I gotta go back to work at the miserable 630pm, it doesn't matter anymore because I'm gonna have a nice shower and sleep! Adios! Thank God It's Friday!