*Phew*

It was Saturday yesterday. Mandy came over at 7pm and we went chinatown for dinner at 8.30pm. We went for shanghai food. She was complaining about having hot flush and aches on her thigh and arms. I didn't take that seriously. As soon as we ordered our food, she started to feel shaky and couldn't breathe properly. She just don't look too good. We paid and took away all our food and proceed to the hospital.

Lucky that one of her friend is taxi driver. He came picked us up and went straight to Alfred Hospital. At first I was thinking to go St. Vincent because it was the nearest but his friend drove us to Alfred instead. The nurse checked everything and said she her pulse and heartbeat are normal, that man still said it could get any better as if she had drugs or something.

So we waited for 1 hour just to see the doctor. The doc said she's fine etc etc. We went home, eat then sleep. She still don't look ok to me compared to the usual talk-non-stop-amanda, we were guessing that she might be allergic to antibiotics she's having now but the doc said it wasn't but couldn't figure out why.

She went straight to see a proper doc again this morning when she woke up in the noon. Looked better but still having hot flush and ache all over. I even lend her my spare phone k700i. Though I'm selfish when it comes to my gadgets and phones, but her battery went flat and if anything happens to her on her way back because of my selfishness, I'll never forgive myself.

WTF

I was browsing my phone, trying to delete unwanted files as there are too much junks. The sound folder in my phone occupied most of the space so it would be wise to start from there. As I was scrolling, playing short clips etc etc.. I found this recorded file in my memory stick. So obviously either I recorded it myself or someone sent that to me. The information shown that it was RECEIVED on the 10 of August.

I traced back what I did on that day through my blog. *Yea that's one good reason to keep a blog* I'm damn sure I was at home that day. And how is that possible for that file to be in my phone for 2 months without me knowing at all? OK let's say someone use bluetooth but I just don't get it? My neighbours are all Aussie and WHERE ON EARTH DID THIS INDIAN SONG came from?

I kept laughing while playing over and over again that 1 minute Indian song.. Without a single clue of its origin. I haven't been to India.. Yes my best friend here is half Indian but she doesn't speak Tamil or I don't see how she transform her voice into a man's voice..

Anyway.. its entertaining..

My Hidden Talent

Because of the comment charsiew left in the previous post, I decided to call up my lecturer to talk to him instead of e-mailing.. I still tried my best to persuade him to exempt me from doing few of the assignments in exchange for what he cancelled. It was still a "NO" indeed. Well at least now I know what the immunity card all about. I'm now immuned to penalties. So I won't have to rush things before I go back. Yay! Even if I start my final project when I come back in February next year, hand up late.. No problem!

Oh ya, I went to this Cake Decorating schools on Wednesday. I was told to write an article about them and the course they offered such as teach people how to make cakes, I mean REALLY nice cakes like those you saw in wedding. Damn I was impressed!

Then I was spending my 2 days writing out that article in MANDARIN. I mean I have no problem with that but writing it and typing it ALL out was.. Don't know how to say. I speak above average mandarin and cantonese and english and lousy teochew with Malaysian accent. So for me to phrase proper sentences that all Asian in such Multiculture country like Australia can understand, I need to take in consideration from many different aspects. I would rate the stress level of scratching my scalp of to think those sentences as 6/10.

I was praising myself after I finished typing out. I was telling myself:" See, I know you can do it..". I guess it'll be publish in mid November.. Just a 1 1/2 page article. From this I found another hidden talent/interest in me. Hope I can do something out of this in the future. To be a journalist that can travel all over the world, sounds good ya..

Alright.. time to get back to reality and cook!

Replied finally

My lecturer finally replied me with this:

As on offer of compensation are you prepared to accept immunity from penalty. What I mean by this is that if any of your assignments are late or you fail one and have to resubmit you would not suffer penalty and would get the grade it is worth. This immunity would apply to every assignment that you are required to complete for the course.

That sounds good to me. Does that mean its ok even if I don't hand up? Cos if I don't hand up then I fail but I have the immunity card on hand.. How?

Lucky's Gone

The survivor of the Sept 9 aftermath, Lucky was found dead in its tank this afternoon.

I knew this will happen because Lucky was on medication since then but the black patch on its tail still as obvious as before. I woke up late today so I'm not sure the "official" time. Might be last night, or this morning..

Anyway, I wasn't very sad compared to Happy's death. I didn't cry but instead I accepted it in peace. I was happy that the two can finally reunite.

Bye Happy..
12 July 2005 - 24 October 2005

What should I do with the tank now?

Suddenly..

I have a dream..

I met up with the editor of Meaningful Melbourne Magazine this afternoon. At first I was after the casual work of writing, photography and design of the magazine. The main purpose of this mag is to introduce interesting stuff to everyone in Melbourne such as good restaurants, shops, some knowledge & information, travel, finance etc etc. I really find it meaningful and that's the reason that brought me there. Moreover, I like to write and find out new things.

They used to have a 2-hour session of radio broadcast everyday but due to poor frequency, they ended it. I got home later and suddenly thought of how nice if Melbourne can have their own chinese station or cantonese, whatever. Just like MY Fm. It would be great. People who appreciate chinese/canto songs will know how I feel. Be it with or without chinese background, it just represents the sense of belonging to a place. Imagine.. listening to chinese radio station along Melbourne's freeway.. Well, it sounds good to me at least.

How nice if I can be the one who can make this dream come true? I'm sure alot out there are hoping for this to happen. I want to do it but I don't know how.

Reply Me!

明天會更好 is really true.. Literatlly translated as tomorrow will be better. I totally forgot about yesterday. I will not be unhappy for all these tiny matters in my life anymore because it takes more cells to frown than to smile.. So.. just smile!

I mailed my lecturer and he replied me with this:

Upon canceling the midi assignments i offered the class to come to me on an individual basis and ask for compensation on the assignment work. So... what you need to do is show me how much time you spent doing the work and give me what work you've done. You also need to think of how you would like to be compensated. Obviously cash is not an option but perhaps you have an overdue assignment you would like to wave penalty on, or something like that?

And I replied this:

For those assignments, I started doing it in August. Maybe you can check the booking system.. I started it earlier because I don't know how to use the O2R and that's why I managed to finish. I submitted to you on the 3/10. It's in the assignment tray..

I'm not sure how I would like to be compensated, do you think I can sort of exchange it with other assignments? Not sure if you remember I told you months ago that I'll be away after Christmas break till exam time. You said its possible as long as I can finish everything. Can I not doing some of those 6A, 6B and 6C? I'll still be doing the major recording and I need to know how to do all these anyways. Just that I won't have to hand it in.

I'm trying my best to finish things up but I really hope my effort wouldn't go down the drain again.. It's sad to know that some in the class haven't started, while I've done it all.

Alright, it's really up to you to decide.. Pls tell me even its a no and I'll think of something else..

Hope he says YES.. Or else.. There's nothing I can do right?

Injustice

How can I not write about today? At 11am, I was at Spencer St tram stop sighing "Why me?" when I almost burst in tears..

What happened? I went to class because I thought C24 might be important for mixing. I know I have to get a daily ticket which cost me 5.90. I've got a 5 dollar note and 1 dollar coin in my pocket. That's all. I haven't cash out any since its only Monday. I REALLY don't know why I TOTALLY forgot that tram doesn't accept notes.

On the way there, I realised I haven't got coins. I didn't wanna get off and go buy a ticket because I don't want to be late since the tram is so packed and rather impossible to check if I've got a ticket. I thought I'll go get one during break time. There was only 6 of us out of 9 turned up. Chris was late for 30 minutes and soon we found out he got some emergency appointment. Bloody hell no one even bother to inform us.

I was abit pissed. But the main reason that got on my nerve was he cancelled 3 of the assignments. To all the lazy fuckers, your wish is granted. For me, it's time to trash my hard work and effort of 2 months in the bin. Honestly, I was really sad to know that. Yes the rest can go celebrate but what about me?

Alright I was really pissed after hearing that from my friends and I went home straight, i got on the tram without a slight thought of not having a ticket. One stop after is the depot. I was caught again. I tried to get off but too bad. I was thinking to buy one anyway. No matter what I told her, even show her the amount of money I have to get a ticket, she insisted of reporting, saying she had to. But she will include the reason for me and up to the authority to decide..

That was how I ended up at Spencer because I didn't wanna be in the same tram with them. After telling my bf, my sis and bro and matt. I felt much better. I cried when I spoke to my sis in skype.. Don't know why. I felt very injustice.

My Room

It's the 4th month since I moved in to this new apartment. I took some pics before but not after I'm here. Maybe some other time. But today I feel like posting some pics of my room. ONLY. Hehehe..

My wardrobe. Now you see..

Now you don't.. Thanks to Ikea for the shower curtain..

My workstation..

I love gadgets. Especially electronic ones. Anything cute and special will do. I don't know why. Here's a few toy of mine..

I love pink.. OK?

Magic wands..

Abit off the topic, I'll save some pics for other time!

I can eat

I should have get my ass up earlier this morning instead of being annoyed by my neighbours and those around because they were having party?? at 12 pm! blasting every single speaker in the apartment, eat, drink, talk, laugh.. LOUD.. Typical ang mo..

Well, I am a typical chinese too.. hehe.. Since I already got up, I might as well go out yum cha and walk walk! I love spring.. the weather is too good to stay at home. I was thinking of what to have for dinner when I was enjoying my prawn dumplings. See how important food is in my life! Ok, Let's cook something western tonight.

Fish & corn.. Steak & corn.. I know too much corn.. With mashed potato.. 2 glasses of wine on the other side.. hehe..

What a great dinner! Everything went perfect and the fest begins! Some idiots who claimed to have the torrent of LOST episode 4 conned me!!! It was episode 3! So I got nothing to watch during dinner except some TVB drama..

Oh ya, I had ice cream for dessert. Hehe.. I'm freaking full now!!! Later I got red bean soup somemore for supper..

I want LOST!

Suddenly I felt like watching LOST. Sigh.. the shit part about TV drama is it's a once-a-week-only thing. How I wish to have the whole season 2 with me now so that I won't be guessing and analysing the plot behind. I do have the choice of not thinking but I couldn't help it. I'm a scorpion, I make use of my analytical skills all the time.

Ever since I finished season 1, I was so eager to know what the hell is in the hatch and now that I know what's inside, I wonder what is going to happen if they don't follow Desmond's order to push that group of numbers to keep them alive? 4, 8, 15, 16, 23, 42. By now I can easily remember..

It's showing every Wednesday on abc in the states. Lucky you people over there and those who can watch from other channels. Too bad for me! But.. I connect the world with BT nowadays and that's the best software human ever developed. I'll be watching for tomorrow's dinner.. Haha..

Bla

Everything looked grey to me today. Don't ask me why. I got no idea. I was moody. Must be PMS.

Yes I missed class for 2 days in a row. I just don't feel like going that's all. Anyway, Terina said it was boring to the max and as usual our "dear" lecturer was bullshitting again..

We went Nando's for dinner. I felt better after that. =)
Spoke to Mandy. Felt even better. =)

I rejected her invitation of the BBQ party this Saturday. I'm not trying to isolate myself from the whole world, but the fact that Endeavour Hills is VERY far, for someone who rely on public transport 100%-ly..

But there's always next time gal! You wait.. for me to get a car.. =P

Now listening: Billy Ocean - When the going gets tough

What's your standard?

Everyone has got their own measurement tape of how things should be done, how much pressure you can take, how much pain you can endure etc etc.. But what exactly is the standard of your choice of man? Don't get me wrong, I'm not a maniac who enjoys measuring any part of mens body but instead of what kind of man attracts me and their manhood.

What makes a man a man? I have my standards, rules and regulations.

I do admit that Dad plays a very important role in this topic. I'm not trying to praise my dad here but I can't think of anything for me to talk bad about. He is a very responsible man. He take cares of our whole family, very well. His priority at anytime will be his family.

And because of that, everything he did as a father and a husband influenced me alot. Put it this way, I will expect any male to have those qualities and if anyone fail to have those, they lost their impression points.

I expect a man to..

- Be loyal and faithful to his partner, at all time.
- Smarter than me. Taller than me. Skin must be rougher than me.
- Bleed like a man. Don't yell for ambulance for a small cut. (There were once dad got this deep cut while changing the headlamp of my car because I crashed into someone else. He didn't say a word though he was bleeding alot.)
- Get rid of any sorts of insects such as cockroach and spider for me.
- Lend me his shoulder when I need to.
- Fix all the electronic appliances during malfunction.
- Be social active.
- Pay my meals.
- Respect woman.

These are just maybe 1/10 of my expectations.. I don't know, some might think I'm demanding but who doesn't anyway? And of course in reality, thing's are not perfect and if you're the 1 in a zillion who met the someone who met all your expectations, congrats! For those who did not, as long as he love you, stop comparing. Try to change if you must, but if you can't, accept it. =)

Say cheese!

This is me captured by my logitech webcam. It has been ages since I last webcam-ed with anyone. I'm just making use of the poor thing instead letting it coated with dust..

I was concentrating on my next assignment which I have to source and mix for a video named snookles. A baby dino talking to a bird and turned the poor fellow into ash while trying to sing.

It wasn't fun AT ALL to do it with headphones. My ears ache like mad. Unless I get another pair of speakers or I'll continue to be like that. Stupid Mbox. Stupid Digidesign.

Now listening: The Fray - Over My Head

It's ENOUGH

I skipped class yesterday. Though I was wide awake at the time I'm supposed to be, I went back to sleep. The fact that I'll be hearing Chris bullshit for half of the time, my mood just went down the drain. I went today instead, and yay.. he and his nonsense.. sigh. I wonder why at the first place they employed him 5 years ago. First, he talked about his new phone, some blardee Nokia phone and then started the lecture unprepared. No structure at all. The worst topic he discussed today was PORN. I'm not saying it's a sin for watching porn, but what does porn gotta do with surround sound!! This is the second time he mention porn in the class.

I'm so glad that he'll be leaving. For Good.

As I can see how this whole effect of him affecting me, I reflected of my life studying in SAE. The conclusion is: He is not a good teacher. During his absense, Darren his assistant took over the class and I learnt so much. That was the only period I think I didn't pick the wrong course. At times, I wanted to give up because Chris always think we're genius or something and can get the hang of things quick. He was wrong.

Me and a few gals were complaining about him in the tram on the way home. We didn't mean to but we've reached the point where he really get on our nerves. Melissa wanted to complain just a few days before he resign. But it wasn't very ethical since we're not gonna see him in a month time.

Oh well... whatever... It's only 2 more months till I finish this course. And for sure, that'll be the end of the chapter of my student life. It's ENOUGH. Time to get a job.

It's spring

Happy October!! The weather is great today!! Sunny day with breezing wind. Couldn't ask for more.. It was the sun that woke me up actually, not the alarm.

Today the class were shock to know that Chris is resigning. His last day would be 18th November. But then, good for him because teaching wasn't what he want for career. Good news for some of us as we think he bullshit alot. Hehe.. Anyways, good luck!

Midi assignmentS supposed to due today, that was why I tried my best to finish it last week! Apparently I was the only who "completed" it. The rest just have excuses of not being able to get it done by pointing their fingers to the studio and the gears. Ya right.. tell me why I can get it done then? Cos I start it months ago? By asking till the supervisors show me how to do? Come on you bunch of lazy fuckers.. Sigh.. I know its hard, but isn't it the whole point of getting assignments? I don't see any point of cancelling any of them. Chris was even funnier by asking us if any of us will go crazy if he said forget about all the midi assignments!? I raised my hand straight away. Of course I'll turned insane even if you cancel one of them! Well, he's still trying to come up with something. You better don't.. Or I'll have to complain. By all means.

Alright, I ain't that pissed actually. The weather is too good to let this whole thing to ruin it. I went Myer, shopping. To be specific, I went to Biotherm counter ONLY. I bought a shower cream, softening exfoliator and moisturizer with reasonable price. My skin is getting abit dry after the whole winter, its time to quench my skin's thirst before summer arrives and before I attend my bro's wedding.

I realised I haven't been shaving my armpit hair for er.. sometime. So I guess now its the time to shave.. hehe.. On my way home after shopping, there was this lady wearing T shirt and she as holding the grip on top. Me as an Asian obviously shorter than her can see her armpit hair. Holy shit! Guess what, it was worse than a man! Mine is long, but hers.. too long till they curled up! Like the "Fatt Choi" we had on one of the dishes during CNY. Yuxx.. I didn't decide to shave because I saw hers, but for the fact that I might be wearing T shirt and short sleeve soon..

That's all for today for the time being..